Calling it

I'm calling it now, I think this week is going to be a fat week. I have tried to keep my calorie numbers down but I am struggling at the moment for some reason. I just keep being really hungry at times. I watched a girl at work today who is a size six eating her 'dinner' and I was so enviable. Honestly, she had brought a leftover chinese and literally had two bits of beef and three forkfuls of noodles and she was done. No where near clearing half a pot of leftovers...and that's her done for the day till tea time. It blows my mind. I wish I was wired like that. The only way I could do that is to just be hungry and deal with it. I think I have too long gone with instant gratification whenever I am peckish and it's screwed the programming of my mind.

Starting Monday I am going to hardcore mode this diet thing. I am going to rigidly stick to everything and not have any sorts of nibbles or extras at all and just be hungry. I have read so much recently about actresses being starving what with awards season being about and everyone marveling at how emaciated Anne Hathaway looked in Les Mis. I also read that she was eating a couple of oatmeal crackers a day and nothing else during the prep for that movie which is, of course, unhealthy but by god I'd trade my mother for her willpower!

I think I have gotten lazy in the sense that I have lost so much already, five and almost a half stone. It feels like I should have achieved my goal and yet I have so much further to go. The next level feels almost like it should be a hop, skip and jump away. In Boots a girl hopped onto the scales whilst with her friend, and she had a pretty amazing figure. I heard her say 'oh I'm more than I thought. Eleven stone'. That's only three stone from me! I'm three stone from that! I can do it I know but it's just so tedious.

So yeah, I think it's time to just embrace being hungry and drink more tea or something because what I'm doing clearly isn't working when I'm two months from Christmas and only eight pounds down. Even with the constant exercise. I mean six times a week is a lot more than most people do and it just doesn't show. I'm sure it's doing wonders for my fitness. In fact I know my fitness is improving because the last time I visited my friend previously we walked up this ginormous hill and at the top I was fairly out of puff. This time round we did it again and whilst I was still winded, it was a lot better than the first. So I know that's improving but I just need to apply my mind to the eating thing and get out of this rut.

Next week shall be known as hunger week! And we WILL get through this brain. No you're not going to starve if you don't have a snack. Get a grip.

I'll keep you posted. Good boo.